The River

Sometimes

I may feel like I’m trapped

Sandwiched between two neverending walls

In a tunnel with no light at the end

Everlasting night is not my friend

But if I keep going

Just one more step

Just one more minute, hour, day, week, month, year

I always find the river I’m looking for

And I always appreciate it even more

I Wonder

What does it feel like

To be in your shoes?

I wonder

As I sit here sulking

Soaking in the madness of my life

I wonder if it’s better where you are

Do you, too, look up at the stars

And wonder if they’re brighter

To someone worlds apart?

Dear Honey

I set my bowl of honey
With hopes you’d fly in
I poured it all on me
Let it cover my skin
I prayed for your loving
I prayed for your sin
I hoped you would touch me
And that we’d begin

I waited and waited
Let it drip to the floor
I pictured you craving
Consumption and more
I felt what it’d feel like
If you came through that door
Got lost in my thoughts
β€˜Til all the honey was poured

5 ways to find peace within

There are some things in this lifetime that I have been through… and looking back, I sometimes wonder just how exactly did I get through those tough times? It seems that sometimes I barely made it, hanging by a thread. And now I just feel so good about my life, in general!

So how can we all start to feel good about ourselves and our lives everyday, and get through all the tough times? They’re inevitable, so might as well be prepared with some tools to help turn the page into a better part of the chapter.

1. Journal. I know it’s been said to do this in just about every self help article and book. But writing down what you feel, what you are facing, what you are trying to do, etc. really helps you put things into perspective. Not only will it help you really assess the gravity of your situation, but it may also lead you to feel gratitude for the things that are going right.

2. Practice Gratitude. This is going to sometimes be the most difficult thing to do when it feels like your whole world is broken, but trust me, it will help! You can start with the basics: I am grateful to be alive. I am grateful for the food I am about eat. Then move on to bigger, more complex things. I am grateful for my family’s support. I am grateful to have a job. And so on and so forth.

3. Groom Yourself. Yup. Groom yourself. Oftentimes, when I’m feeling down or overwhelmed, I somewhat let myself go without even realizing it. It’s super easy for this to happen as a mother to a toddler. Then suddenly I realize I look less than spectacular, so I finally pluck my eyebrows, trim my hair, polish my nails and start to feel uplifted instantly!

4. Get Outside. Go somewhere, outside! It could be as simple as sitting on a bench at the nearby park, or getting all the way to the beach for some ocean vibes. Do this whenever possible. It will stimulate your senses, to reinvigorate you. You’ll feel clearer, refreshed.

5. Clean Up Your Space. There’s nothing that can weigh me down more on a daily basis than a cluttered living or working space. I try to at least keep everything clean. Tidy and organized is another story. However, when I do finally “reset” things and put everything in its proper place and reorganize, I feel much more clearheaded and ready to take on any task at hand.

Photo taken at Satellite Beach

31 Random Things I Love πŸ’–

1. When my baby giggles and then squeezes me tightly. πŸ‘ΆπŸ»

2. Actually understanding something in a new language I’m learning. πŸ“™

3. When someone understands exactly what I’m saying even though I’m overcomplicating what I’m trying to say. πŸ™Œ

4. Finding a new song that expresses exactly what someone makes me feel. πŸ’ž

5. Being able to share that song with that someone. 🎢

6. Good night calls and good morning texts. πŸ“±

7. Making a dessert for people I love and watching the joy on their face as they eat it. 🍰

8. The way my eyebrows look once I get them done (myself) after growing them out for a while. 🀨

9. Floating around in the ocean water, when the sun and the water are both warm. 🌊

10. Meeting new interesting people, even if I never see them again. πŸ‘₯

11. When I look good in a selfie with minimal effort. 🀳

12. When my best friends understand the exact meaning of any of my facial expressions. 😏

13. When a tarot reading confirms something I already kind of knew. πŸƒ

14. My toe nails, freshly polished. πŸ‘£

15. When I complete a craft project smoothly! πŸ“

16. Creating a playlist full of songs that match one of my moods. 🎼

17. Good, cheesy, flavorful pizza. πŸ•

18. My bed, just made with freshly laundered sheets. πŸ›Œ

19. Sleeping with a fan on. ❄

20. The flickering of candlelight in a dark room. πŸ•―

21. The scent of fresh cut flowers. πŸ’

22. Everything about autumn. The colors, the air, the foods, the festivities. πŸ‚

23. When my little one just wants to snuggle with me at the end of the day. πŸ‘©β€πŸ‘¦

24. Long weekends at home, relaxing! πŸ›‹

25. The butterfly feelings when talking to a crush. πŸ¦‹

26. An ice cold drink on a hot day! πŸ₯€

27. Writing…anything! ✍

28. Finding a new series to watch, and being hooked on it from the start. πŸ“Ί

29. When the exact outfit you want to wear fits perfectly! πŸ‘—

30. Freshly trimmed-down finger nails. πŸ’…

31. Perfect lighting to fit the mood. πŸ’‘

Letter to Him

I’ve been dreaming of him a lot. Ever since I got to know him. It always seems like I am trying to face one of my insecurities in each dream. And despite that, I’m always so happy to see him there. It’s comforting, pleasant. And he always seems to be there for me, to make me feel loved and reassured.

You used to do that for me too, in real life. You’d make me feel comfortable and like I could really be open, like I didn’t have to hide. I wanted to make myself even better just for you. I was vulnerable because I felt safe. I felt… home. I didn’t want to run away. For once. So why did you push me away? Why?

Random Things That Make Me Happy

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In an effort to express more gratitude in my life.

  1. Spending time with my nephews. πŸ‘©β€πŸ‘¦β€πŸ‘¦Β β€οΈ
  2. When my nephews start acting up and I remember I don’t have kids and can just send them right back to their parents. πŸ˜…
  3. Sending my nephews right back to their parents. πŸ˜‚
  4. When I paint my own nails and they actually look decent. πŸ’…πŸΌ
  5. Baking from scratch. 🍰
  6. Arranging the food on my plate like a pro. 🍱
  7. When something I’ve designed and sewn actually fits properly. πŸ‘—
  8. Finding great deals while shopping on a budget. πŸ›
  9. When all the traffic lights are green the entire drive home. 🚦
  10. When my car is fresh and clean, inside and out. πŸš™
  11. Driving at sunset, windows down, chill music playing. πŸŒ…
  12. Finding all the right songs that express exactly how I feel about someone. πŸ’“
  13. Finding a new personal anthem. 🎢
  14. Working up a sweat during a workout. πŸ‹πŸ»β€β™€οΈ
  15. Feeling sore the next morning. πŸ’ͺ🏼
  16. When the Universe/God sends me the exact sign I asked for. 🌌
  17. Having an insightful conversation with a complete stranger. πŸ‘₯
  18. Drinking tea while doing absolutely nothing else. β˜•οΈ
  19. Great phone conversations longer than an hour. πŸ“ž
  20. Finishing a great book. πŸ“š
  21. Receiving a package much sooner than expected. πŸ“¦
  22. When I wake up with no hangover after a great night out. πŸ₯‚
  23. Traveling somewhere I’ve never been before. ✈️
  24. When my curls are poppin’ after a fresh haircut.Β πŸ’‡πŸ»
  25. Checking every item off a to-do list. πŸ“‹
  26. Learning something new about myself through astrology. ♍️
  27. When I actually get a vision during meditation. πŸ“Ώ
  28. Reading old journal entries and realizing how far I’ve come. πŸ“–

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