a little bit of everything
From the day you were born
And almost 9 months before
I knew that I’d love you
Forever and more
From your cute little curls
To your ten little toes
The way that you hug me
Really warms up my heart
The smile on your face
Is all that I need
I never imagined I could love someone this much
And I never thought I could be so loved in return
So this holiday season, I give thanks to the Universe, Source, God, etc.
For everyday is a holiday
Because I have you in my arms
Sometimes
I may feel like I’m trapped
Sandwiched between two neverending walls
In a tunnel with no light at the end
Everlasting night is not my friend
But if I keep going
Just one more step
Just one more minute, hour, day, week, month, year
I always find the river I’m looking for
And I always appreciate it even more
Uncomplicated surrealness
Thoughts from the deepest
Like a dream you can’t wake up from
But you can’t wait to fall asleep in
You’re not a challenge, but you challenge me
How can you be so different yet…
Feel so familiar
Too many characters, not enough space
But you simplified the message
And eliminated mistakes
A smiley face here, a thinking face there
We could learn a new word
And rename our whole world
Nervous
Because the memory, of things which haven’t occurred, haunts me
And I am bound with these invisible yet burdensome chains
To a spirit of enlightenment
That no one will believe
Unless they, too, are free
It’s just my imagination
When I open my eyes and see you next to me
Right?
When you text me
When you call me
When you say my name as if you’re falling
There’s nothing really there
Right?
It’s just my imagination
When you rush to my side when I’m feeling down
Right?
When you protect me
When you uplift me
When you say you’ll always be there for me
There’s nothing really there
Right?
It’s just my imagination
When you talk about the future and my role in it
Right?
When you say you need me
When you say you want me
When you tell me “please don’t leave me”
There’s nothing really there
Right?
It’s just my imagination?
Right?
Right?
Right.
11:11
Hello my friend
So good to see you again
Time to recycle old feelings
And renew these vows until the end
Look at my reflection
And you’ll see yourself
For your eyes see through my soul
And my soul is in tune with yours
Entangled
Do you remember when we first locked eyes?
It seems like we can escape time
Like we’ve met before in a previous life
Like we’ve known each other
Like you were mine
11:11
I think of you
And you just show up
No need to call you
You hear my thoughts
And respond in an instant
If I could choose a friend for the end of the world
I’d choose you again and again
I feel this melancholy like I’m missing you
I’m missing you like I’ve been with you
I’m feeling like I’m needing you
Not in the way that I can’t live without you
But I don’t want to be without you
11:11
You emerge again
You awaken me from my slumber
You ignite my hunger
You set the fire and walk away
Then tell me that you should’ve stayed
Come closer, without delay
11:11
My twin flame
What does it feel like
To be in your shoes?
I wonder
As I sit here sulking
Soaking in the madness of my life
I wonder if it’s better where you are
Do you, too, look up at the stars
And wonder if they’re brighter
To someone worlds apart?
I set my bowl of honey
With hopes you’d fly in
I poured it all on me
Let it cover my skin
I prayed for your loving
I prayed for your sin
I hoped you would touch me
And that we’d begin
I waited and waited
Let it drip to the floor
I pictured you craving
Consumption and more
I felt what it’d feel like
If you came through that door
Got lost in my thoughts
‘Til all the honey was poured
Currently
Working on my throat chakra
Trying to express myself
Finding my voice
Surrounding myself with pure divine light
Elevating onto the clouds
Shifting my perspective and position
So that I can breathe
Flowing like a steady river
Free
Lola M Kelly 