Why should I let go?
It’s not that I want to
It’s that the feelings are stronger
Than I’d care to admit
And it’s easier to let them float away with the wind
Than to let them soak in the waters that were created by the tears that I’ve cried while waiting for a solid sign
The earth that I stand on quivers and shakes with every thought
And every sigh
The fire…it
Burns.
It’s not that I want to let go
But that it feels like the only way out of this…insanity
Do I feel ashamed that I can give and give
Without condition
With full submission?
No. Not at all.
But logic will tell me that it makes no sense
That I should give up feeling what is just pretend
Just a daydream
Just a fantasy
But then again
It would take just one move
One word
One look
And logic walks right out the door
As I let you back in
And the entire cycle begins again
So do I let go
And then it’s gone for good?
Or keep holding on
Until I’m gone?
My River and Me
I’m looking right at you
You’re looking at me
The tension is high
As I draw you in
You’re acting so cool
Like you don’t need to swim
But my river is refreshing
Continue reading “My River and Me”Writer’s Block
Should I have memorized
The way your hands fit in between these lines
The way your fingers touched upon every word
The way they traced every letter’s curve
Unsending Messages
Unsent a message
Just as soon as you sent it
But I took a screen shot of the notification
A mouthful about nothing if you had to unsend it
A whole paragraph about things you’ve been feeling
Just to take it all back
To make me think that I’m seeing things
If it isn’t there now, did it never exist?
Typing, typing
Stop.
Offline.
Well, just say what you have to say
Or don’t bother at all
What’s the difference if you’re scared and always “unsending” your feelings?
Alright, let me say something, for a change:
I’m not sitting around waiting, so if you want something, express it.
Don’t take it back shyly. It’s not cute or appealing.
I like…
Determination.
Expression.
Confidence.
Hit Send!
Okay, wait… did I really just send that?
Bedtime Tea
Just like this tea, I am in need
Of some sugar, honey, and maybe cream
So hot and spicy
This ginger tea
To ease the pain
Of my unsettled woes
To ease the strain
On my severed hopes
To soothe my throat
After all this crying
To give me life
When I feel I’m dying
Just like this tea
I can heal my pain
Forget the sadness
Ignore the rain
Take joy in each sip
From the cup that’s life
Go on with my day
Until it turns to night
Just like this tea
I am in need
To be poured into a vessel
And be held
And ease
Just my imagination
It’s just my imagination
When I open my eyes and see you next to me
Right?
When you text me
When you call me
When you say my name as if you’re falling
There’s nothing really there
Right?
It’s just my imagination
When you rush to my side when I’m feeling down
Right?
When you protect me
When you uplift me
When you say you’ll always be there for me
There’s nothing really there
Right?
It’s just my imagination
When you talk about the future and my role in it
Right?
When you say you need me
When you say you want me
When you tell me “please don’t leave me”
There’s nothing really there
Right?
It’s just my imagination?
Right?
Right?
Right.